The last couple of weeks have been more stressful than I would like to admit. There have been a lot of great things like getting an offer on our house (yay!) but the impending move has me feeling anxious. I know that this change is going to be a great one in the long run, but the uncertainty of leaving a place that has become so comfortable is making me crawl out of my skin. And, when I am feeling overly anxious, I almost always choose this time to be unhappy with me – my body, my abilities, my relationships….and on and on in a horrible spiral.
Last Monday I started feeling these negative thoughts. Matt and I took the rug rat for a run, and I was feeling slow and tired. We got in a short 2 mile run before heading back home for dinner, bath time and the normal night with a baby. When we were changing from the run, I put Jack on our bed. I had a shiny bracelet at the other end of the bed that caught Jack’s attention. I watched as his expression said, “I’m going to get that!” He army crawled to the bracelet pretty slowly, and he was panting! But he was so determined. When he got to his prize he smiled and grabbed. I let him have a few congratulatory seconds before stealing it back. What a mood changer!
While Jack only moved about 2 feet, he gave it his all and accomplished something completely new. I’m going to try to quit whining and just get out there and go for it. Whether the “it” is getting in a slower 2 miler, or moving hundreds of miles away to get closer to achieving a dream. I hope your week gets you closer to an accomplishment, big or small, too! (Now trying to pack with a more mobile baby is another story…)
I do the same thing to myself – why are we so silly?!
Its great we have people in our lives to remind us that our perspective can change everything!
I have my healthy evaluation this week. I think you blogged about yours recently? They might think I am a basketcase! Already looking forward to a run and coffee with you this week!
I know how you feel about taking on new endeavors and not knowing if the outcome will be beneficial or not…
I know this feeling of uncertainty well, BUT have no fear. Easy to say right?! Just recognize that you are stepping out of your comfort zone and when you do this…THEN, you start living : ) And plus, you’ll have Jack and Matt right there next to you the whole way.
We’re always here for you!!! xoxo
Ha! I’m talking about moving 500 miles away when you took a solo adventure across the world. Perspective again, right? I am going to miss seeing your face…but it’s only a matter of time before you take off on your next adventure.
I get the same way….I call in “doomsdaying.” When things start to stress me out then everything stresses me out, upsets me, or just overall sucks! The important thing is that the little things make us take a step back and realize that these stresses are normal…and the good things are so much better because of them! Congrats on the offer, but we will all be sad to see you go!!!
Doomsdaying – perfect description! Maybe I will smile and think of you now when I start the stress train.